bard of nothingness

1. I like this quote from Cai Kangyong: “In ancient times, we didn't text, we didn't chat online, we didn't cross oceans, we weren't stuck in traffic. If I missed you, I would climb over two mountains and walk five miles to hold your hand.” These simple and plain words contain profound and enduring philosophy. Different people have different interpretations, and in my eyes, ancient love is just like this—seemingly ordinary at first glance, yet deeply meaningful. Poet Zhaxi Lamu Duoduo wrote in 'The Traveler': “When you are on the other side of the mountains, I am on a lonely road with no end.” It's an astonishing coincidence, echoing Cai Kangyong's words, and together they create an indescribably beautiful mood. Perhaps the process of waiting for love is bumpy and lonely, but no one can deny that life becomes extraordinary because of it. I am such a person, believing in ancient love, never stopping my steps, and I believe that one day I will find my own happiness.

2. Modern people more or less have a sense of loneliness. Whether they are sensitive and emotionally rich young people, middle-aged people working hard for their careers and families, or elderly people enjoying their later years, there will always be moments when their hearts feel empty. Unfortunately, the city seems to have no cure for loneliness, only countless addictive poisons: for example, smoking, getting drunk, violence, or promiscuity. Because of fear of being hurt, we tend to wrap ourselves up tightly, yet when loneliness comes, we crave someone to enter our hearts. Annie Baby wrote in a Weibo post: “My heart is a palace soaked in seawater. It is prepared for emptiness and for anyone who comes in.” Perhaps this describes a common psychological phenomenon for modern people. Therefore, optimistic and enthusiastic people are easily welcomed around us. Their emotional tolerance is like a kaleidoscope; when you are in a bad mood, you can pour out your troubles, and they will accept them fully. When together normally, they will come up with humorous jokes to make you laugh nonstop.

Due to childhood loneliness, there is a child in my heart who never grows up. I have never hidden his presence. At the same time, I am an idealistic person, usually smiling cheerfully and being kind to others. Those who consider me a friend can tell me their worries after meeting me just once or speaking with me for only a few sentences. Of course, the premise is that I consider them worth befriending. Yet sometimes I misjudge people, and when I realize it, I feel sad but do not hold grudges. Everyone has their own reasons for how they deal with matters, and if our paths differ, we simply don't make plans together. I am such a person: optimistic and cheerful in front of others, occasionally childish, but mostly reliable.

3. It wasn't until I was eighteen that I realized how heavy the word ‘gratitude' is. So heavy that I'm not qualified to talk about it now. Except to act silently, any words spoken would be grandiose. I am such a person, owing my parents too much, and I am slowly learning to mature.

Friends, if you have read this article, perhaps you understand me a little—I am a typical pseudo-artistic guy. Please just call me Xiang Paopao in daily life.