2012-05-27
5.
On this day, I woke up in the middle of the night, covered in sweat, like a heavy fish soaked in water. The thin silk became a fishing net that bound me. It wrapped me and made me unable to struggle.
I am once again lost in superficial hallucinations.
Quietly, it was as if a tentacle stretched out from deep inside my heart, stroking every inch of skin on my face and wiping away the sweat on my face.
This is a new illusion.
But it's not a dream.
I, Mo Hongli, am not an iceberg, not strong enough to face everything alone.
I am just a child surrounded by loneliness, but extremely tough-tongued.
I will need a chest that I can rest my head on.
The emotional ups and downs are silent, but the tears are real.
I had to face a similar unbearable scene again - crying for no reason when I woke up from the dream.
Countless experiences tell me that the best way to comfort yourself is to wear MP3 headphones. Because it always calms me down on so many similar nights.
I fumbled for the headset lying on my pillow and quickly inserted it into my left ear. A familiar song came out -
"The city after the rain is lonely and embarrassed. The seat on the roadside is empty and waiting for someone..."
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It means I am here again, host, accept it as you wish! Dreams—who gives them? It is her shadow, it is your memory! It is the beginning and end that neither you nor she can let go of! Love seems to have gone far away, appearing distant and unreachable, and you and she always seem to have that barrier that cannot be crossed! You are silent, she doesn't speak! And so, distance arises! You and she seem like strangers, yet many years later, when you talk about what happened back then, you suddenly realize, quietly regret! Thus, there is always a trace of melancholy in your eyes! There is always a touch of sorrow, feeling the past, feeling the future! How does distance arise? It is when you both feel estranged, both remain silent, and eventually let the image of each other disappear into the horizon. Perhaps only a faint shadow can allow you to pick up that utterly broken memory! Dreams are alluring! Like a mirage, beautiful but distant! But in the end, it is distant; only by pursuing it yourself can you truly see that heaven.
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