Essence *I know, you don’t love me

Chapter.1
If you can't reach the end of the world.
Why did I believe in your eternal life in the first place?
You are the first regret in my life.
You, the first sun in my little world.
You are the most hurtful person in my life that I will never forget.
You, my little heart is stabbed with needles and knives indefinitely.
Chapter.2
About you.
I will never mention it.
Because I know those will involve my sensitive nerves.
Connected to the meridians.
Stretching infinitely to the desolation in my heart.
Chapter.3
I once wanted to take out my heart and show it to you.
But.
I'm afraid.
What I'm afraid of is that the holes will scare you.
Only I know.
Heh.
Your heart is almost broken by you.
But.
I love you.
I love you.
Chapter.4
Whatever.
I don't even want you to see my embarrassed look.
No matter what.
I don't even want you to see my scattered eyes.
No matter what.
I am afraid of missing someone to the point of despair.
No matter what.
You are still the sun that I can't point to.
The untouchable moonlight.
Chapter.5
You finally said it.
In fact, you no longer love me.
I command the tears not to get out of control.
You don't love me.
You can't see my frown when I have nightmares.
You don't love me.
You can't see the hurt expression on my face.
You don't love me.
You can't see the loss I feel as if I'm mumbling to myself.
You don't love me.
You can't see the wreckage in my heart that was crushed by thousands of troops.
You don't love me.
You can't see me trying to smooth out our wrinkled past.
What else can I do.
You no longer love me.
What else should I do?
You won't leave me.
I can only love you.
Isn't this enough?
Chapter.6
There are some things that I haven't said in my heart.
At that time, I didn't know how to express myself.
In the end, my whole heart is covered like moss in the corner.
Sometimes not all pain can be cried out.
So after crying, wipe away your tears.
I will say to myself.
Look, it's not a big deal.
I'm not dead yet.
Chapter.7
I have no intention of looking at the scenery on the roadside.
You can only finish it while walking.
At least I hope for me.
I'm not that unbearable.
I am so shameless that I still have a glimmer of hope in you.
Chapter.8
I want to spend all my lonely time applauding myself.
It will only be for a moment.
The heart twitched one after another.
Ah, um.
It still hurts.
I seem to be cured on the surface.
Some parts seem to be disabled.
Chapter.9
A person has only one heart.
But there are two atria.
One lives happily.
One lives in sorrow.
-Shh.
Don't laugh too loudly.
Otherwise it will wake up the sadness next to you.
Chapter.10
Hey, hello.
Hey, I wish you happiness.
Hey, bye.
Hey, we'll see you later.