Turns out this is what it feels like to love someone

I want to be simple...
I am happy with you...
I remember that I was not interested in games before...
You forgot when I started playing games all night long...
You would stay with me until very late at night...
How happy it was at that time...
Then I started to stay up late...
I fell in love with playing games...maybe to escape pain...
Some people are used to loneliness...
Some people are afraid of loneliness...
I play games desperately to make myself more engaged...
Really Being able to forget that I am alone...
It's like I can always forget that you are no longer here in the virtual world...
I don't know how important you are to me...
I'm just used to having you around...
I'm used to waking up in the middle of the night to check my phone for missed calls. Calls, unread text messages...
You always wake up in the middle of the night and feel scared...
You said you would not be happy with me...
But you know how lucky I am to spend time together when you are afraid of being alone...
Do you know that every time I worry about you? The secret joy in my heart...
The secret joy that I have found happiness...
You always like to think too much...
But you always love and don't want to tell me anything...
I wish I loved games more than loving a person...
It will be my birthday soon...
You choose To stay away from me...
The game has been with me through too much...
Accompany me to bear the pain of losing my favorite...
That night I forced myself to smile and play the game until the next day...
I am used to the sourness of blood-red eyes...
Perhaps it was tears flowing out of disappointment. The best cover up...
Why do you want to play games...
I said it's boring...
Why can't you feel that I hope you spend more time with me...
You think you can't bring me happiness...
You are my girlfriend Friends are not my toys...
It's good to have you...
You don't understand...
Waiting for you to find me...I'm waiting for you...Haha...Even if I wait for you for the rest of my life, I won't regret it...
Some people say that I am very optimistic, maybe, if laughter can bury sadness...