Things more important than dating
A friend I hadn't contacted in a long time said on the phone that flirting with friends was painful, and if I could, I wouldn't want to date early. I said sourly, "You're all tired of playing around, but I don't even have a first love. That's so unfair." My friend retorted, "All you do is flirt with friends all day?" There are so many things you can do in life. I sleazedly replied, "But I want a hug from love!" But honestly, I knew very well that I wasn't desperately needing a girlfriend. In my second year of high school, I had a good relationship with a girl in my class who had a compound surname, which was quite unique. My boyfriend was in a different city, so for a while, I often walked home with her. I was always like a child—when I was with her, I loved all kinds of whimsical jokes, funny things, making her laugh, and having fun together. I ended up encountering quite a few similar scenarios. I'm that kind of boy—a bit fragile, a bit emotional, a bit artistic, a bit fairy-tale...... Girls who spend a long time with me always think I'm a child, because for some inexplicable reason, I later became distant from the girls. I showed my true self to her, but later, I occasionally talked to her. She told me: The longer I spent with you, the more unreal you became. You live in a world full of emotions, it's unrealistic. I broke down like that, as if I had a serious illness. A long, long time passed until I forgot about being friends with the girl. I felt a bit insecure, but I met a new girl...... But experiences are cyclical, and even the outcome is the same. Actually, the girls took good care of me and tolerated my childishness. They told me: real people's hearts are too complicated, scheming is exhausting, but being with a clean boy like you makes me feel lighter. I couldn't help but think artistically about my image: he often spoke in fairy tale terms, his eyes clear, without a bad temper, so clean it reminded me of his pure student days. At the same time, he was lonely, talented, deeply affectionate, and without impurities. When I was with him, everything seemed simpler. Actually, I didn't need a girlfriend. I know, and many people do. What I need is a friend who appreciates me who can take care of me. A friend like a sister—that's more important than just playing friends.
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Being alone is enough. Sometimes I feel this way, but actually, when no one is around, I just want to suffer alone—meaningless pain and tears
Alright, Dotty's feelings, which are somewhat like a 'little woman's,' have now become my style… I want to say — what's needed now is a joke.
Hehe, I seem to be like the original poster, unable to grow up and longing for an older sister who can accept me.
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