About I love you

My parents are both honest individual business owners, and I am not good at speaking at banquets; I am even more afraid of participating in gambling. I usually like to wear clothes and shoes that cost only a few dozen yuan. If this is called being simple as a person, then I still think this simplicity is both a blessing and a curse.
My friend dreamt that I was injured and came to her for comfort; it seems that, subconsciously, I am a boy who needs protection.
And in this concrete jungle, I am protected so well that it feels like I am being spoiled. I often say that such love comes so late, and as a naturally pessimistic person, I am very surprised to be so adored. But laziness is still like a fierce tiger; it comes with despondency, so outwardly I seem thoughtful, but my inner self is pale and powerless.
I told my destined benefactor that I would spend half a year to completely change myself, at least to become more ambitious.
If this were a vulgar plot, it would be crowned in the name of the greatness of love. This clearly resembles the things one might do in campus life at fourteen or fifteen, but now that I am almost twenty, an adult, my maturity can no longer be compared to before, and such a story cannot be called touching.
A person who seems capable in every way doing small, easy things for another person who seems to have nothing and is mentally innocent, without binding each other—this kind of relationship is actually not ambiguous; on the contrary, it is very clear.
At the low point of your life, at a critical stage of personal development, you think what can save you is the love you have desperately hoped for over ten years. But after experiencing countless failed and unrequited loves, and after the age when you are allowed to fantasize carefreely, the dream of campus romance is no longer real. Time and experience have already proven this. The more practical approach is to carefully place and properly treat sincere friendship. As for the so-called gaps, the disparity in money and material possessions, they really are not the key.
Among the advice given, one says: 'You should explore your potential, become more mature, more steady, and engage with life more.' This is like a treasure chest in my life; achieving it or not achieves two entirely different worlds.