(Nonsense) Pressure, what huge pressure!

7 Tan, ever since the last time I tried hard to accomplish something...\
I never thought I would return to the passionate state I once had.\
But, after all the effort to develop Qi Domain to its peak, I let it fall into ruin in a single thought, and the tribe is gone.\
——Not trying to make up for the loss caused by this mistake is really wrong.\
The more I think about it, the more my heart twists in melancholy.\
A few days passed without idling. I quickly edited related posts...\
But unexpectedly, now another tough challenge has appeared. Can I still manage Qi Domain and handle this test? If I lose, what should I do?\
Endless tension and helplessness show.\
This test, this thing...\
Qi is actually not afraid. The admin's tasks—what kind of challenge is that? That little thing, underestimate me!\
300 posts are already half completed by Qi!\
But indeed, I'm tired, already exhausted.\
With heavy thoughts and countless concerns!\
What if some people come to challenge me! Specifically to cause trouble!!! I'm dead, totally dead...\
What if the admin finds fault! Thinking one post of 250 words is too few!! I'm dead, so dead...\
What if bystanders stir up more trouble! Throw me into deeper harm!! I'm dead, dead...\
What if, in the next month!!! One day I accidentally post only 9 posts! I'm dead, so dead...\
Most importantly, what if the tribe can't be rebuilt!! How do I explain this to the members of Qi Domain!\
What if I lose, the favor I played fails, disappointing friends who support Qi...\
What to do!! Dead, dead.\
The more I think, the more it feels like my heart is being twisted painfully! Tears flow uncontrollably!!!\
My heart is half-broken! My pants are wet! (Not from urine, tears are just too much!)!!\
…\
Alright, all of the above is getting exaggerated.\
A month ago, Qi would have acted decisively! Doing whatever I wanted, truly unrestrained!\
Now, I overthink and dare not act!\
Back in the day, Qi was courageous, fearless... despising everything!\
That was vibrant and full of life.\
Now, although I still have the determination to try hard on something,\
I've become worldly and gloomy, hesitant and timid!\
Especially after retiring from the forum in my waning years! Qi has no confidence at all\
I'm dead, dead, might as well be dead.