She and I are classmates. From the first seat change after the start of school, I ended up sitting near her. I was instantly captivated by her and really wanted to talk to her, but I could never find the right opportunity. I'm not particularly good-looking myself, so I've always kept my feelings to myself. Even if I said it, would she like me? She's someone who could be the class beauty; who am I? I'm just a jerk. So I could only sit quietly behind her and watch her. She really is beautiful. Time passed until the next seat change, and I saw her looking at me. I couldn't quite control myself, so I tried to see her reaction, but what I got was her cold words and attitude. My heart sank again, and then we sat in different places.
I had thought that after that, there would be no chance for us, maybe it was fate, or perhaps it was God's plan. The teacher changed the seating again, and I still ended up behind her. I smiled to myself, 'It's her again.' I realized I had fallen deeply in love with her. I tried to find opportunities to chat with her, but it was the same as before, so I could only quietly watch her from behind. Who would believe that the class beauty would fall in love with me? Impossible. But my heart kept trying to convince me. I mustered up the courage and asked her for her QQ number. She said something really arrogant: 'I have QQ, but I won't give it to you.' My heart was thrown into chaos again. Don't tell me to confess—someone who wouldn't even give me their QQ, would they fall in love with me??? So I could only watch her from behind once more, hoping for an impossible miracle. Sometimes I was only five meters away from her, but I couldn't do anything—just watch the person I love right in front of me, unable to act. 'I love you,' I tell you from the bottom of my heart, but I don't have the courage. Twenty-nine days left, and everything will disappear. The sky is still so blue, but my heart is dead.
Now I finally know what the farthest distance in the world is.
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Cherish it well. My first love in middle school has ended now, but love is about feelings. As long as you like someone, what does being young matter? Didn't I also lose my virginity at 13?
I just had dinner with friends and chatted for a long time. I really felt it. As long as you're capable, what is a woman? Everyone is chasing after you. You shouldn't waste your good time on useless things, even though we're still young...
Most importantly: Right now, you're spending your parents' money. What right do you have to use their hard-earned money to please others?
Most importantly: Right now, you're spending your parents' money. What right do you have to use their hard-earned money to please others?
That makes sense. I will be going back to the Northeast soon. It's better to not have it at all than to force pain upon it. Moreover, without capital now, how could I win her heart? Remember, early-blooming flowers are not fragrant...
How old are you? Middle school, right! Don't be foolish, you really don't understand what love is now. When you look back three years from now, you'll think you were just a fool back then! Just feeling attracted to the opposite sex because of a surge in male hormones won't last, this kind of liking is only a temporary impulse. And by deliberately trying to prolong it, you naturally make yourself uncomfortable, feeling increasingly concerned about the other person, which is precisely a sign of immaturity.
The farthest distance in the world is not life and death. It's that I'm on Telecom, and you're on Netcom~
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