Except for rural children, few modern people have noticed that there are ants in the world.
But ants do exist, and I am one of them.
I can't say how long my life will be, maybe a few months, maybe a few hours. So, death has always been around me.
My brothers and I lived together in a hole next to the playground of a campus. I went out to forage every day, dragging some live, half-dead, dead flies or meatworms back into the hole piece by piece, and then stored them like bacon. The longest walk I have ever taken is across the playground to the old tree on the opposite side and back again. That was my first long trip as an adult. After that, I have been going near my hole.
In the first half of my life, the best thing I ate was cherries. When the sweet juice of the red cherries penetrated my heart, I was thinking, I have even eaten cherries in my life, and I can say that I will die without regrets. My life is short, so I have to think about what I haven't done all the time.
But before I died, I ate a lot of delicious food, so there are too many and too few things in this world that would make me die without regrets. It's a bit difficult to die without regrets. At least I should eat a Spanish fly. For no reason, because humans also eat it, although humans say it has an aphrodisiac effect. What is aphrodisiac? I don't know, but I have eaten a lot of flies in my life, big and small, red-headed, green-headed, and numb. Therefore, even humans eat flies, so I should eat them.
I once imagined the possibility that I could eat a Spanish fly. There are two possibilities. The first one is that an extremely strong fly flew from Spain to China with an infinite yearning for our Eastern culture, landed in front of me, and was accidentally eaten by me. But I don't think this fly will be born until I die.
The second possibility is that a student got a Spanish fly through various channels, and then accidentally fell in front of me before he could eat it, and I ate it. And this fly must be dead or disabled. Anyway, he must let me eat him. Finally, I came to the conclusion that such a student would not be able to get into college before my next reincarnation.
So I came to the final conclusion, that is, I am destined to regret this for the rest of my life. Of course, another thing that may make me regret for the rest of my life is that I couldn't take her as my wife.
She is a female ant, the queen of an ant colony opposite. I saw her on one of my first adult journeys, when she was being carried away by a swarm of male ants while still carrying a huge belly. I just stood there and looked at her wildly, which made the male ants very unhappy. They rushed over to bite me, and finally I ran away. When I ran to the entrance of my cave, I said to myself, "TNND. Sooner or later, I will marry her as my wife and your father!" But when I was about to die, I still failed to do this, and together with the fly incident, I had two things that I would regret for the rest of my life. But I am an ant who takes responsibility for myself, so I think it is best to only have one thing. I still decided to be the father of the male ants opposite me in my lifetime. Because it's so hard to eat Spanish flies.
When I walked in, no one noticed that I was not from their tribe, because I was old and the smell on my body had faded. I got to where their queen lives without any trouble. She is also old, but her belly is still big. At her age, she should have retired long ago, but she is still giving birth. No wonder their ant colony is getting stupider and stupider. So I tried to trick her away, which sounded a bit like trafficking.
"Hello, my respected Queen Bixia!" I said to her while staring at her wildly.
"Hello, but I know that you are not from our ant colony."She looked at me calmly when she said this, and at the same time I was complaining in my heart: "Damn, she still remembers after so many births. It's really tricky. "
She continued: "You have a smell, and this smell is the same as what I smelled a few days ago, so I know who you are! "Now that it's been exposed, I simply can't care much about it. Yes, I am the one who drools when I see you, the dying old ant in the ant hole opposite. I saw you N days ago, and I want to marry you. Anyway, I don't expect to eat any Spanish flies once I die.
" "Are you here to take me away? "She asked, a very ordinary sentence but it flashed in my heart like a thunderbolt. Yes, I came here to take her away! But she is the queen of ants, will she come with me unless she eats Spanish flies. I must be more determined to die, and I said to her: "Yes, I have thought about it since that day! "
"Aren't you afraid of death? "She looked at me majestically, but I'm not afraid of her, after all, she is not my mother.
" "No, I am going to die of old age anyway. Marrying you is my last wish. Even if I die in front of you, I will be satisfied." "I said proudly.
"Okay, I'll go with you! "Oh my god, it turns out you have noticed this extraordinary ant of mine!
" I dragged her out and ran out. Those stupid ants were meeting to elect a new queen.
" "Where are we going?" ": "It doesn't matter. With you, I can live my life on the run!" "We still didn't go to the end of the world. I took her back to my cave. Later I realized that I was wrong in not taking her to the end of the world. When I introduced her to my old buddies, I was scared to death on the spot. We took out meat and wine made from flower juice and ate and drank there. I felt like a hero. That day was my happiest day. I drunkenly told her that I would do anything if I died now.
\The news of the queen's escape spread to the opposite colony, and the boys were very angry at my behavior of kidnapping their common mother. They immediately issued a letter of defence, handing us over, or dying.
\Our ant colony was boiling, and the ungrateful guys were ashamed of my behavior. Shameful. So they decided to kill me, including my wife. Then I was an honest ant, and I never thought that so many people would die for the only thing I had. So I told our ant queen that this was my own business, and I finally convinced her. My wife was on her way. The destination was the ant hole on the opposite side.
" Do you regret it? "I asked her. "No, if I regret it, what I regret is that I didn't go with you at that time. I have never been loved, only given birth in my life. But in the end the child I gave birth to was going to kill me. In their eyes, I am just a production machine, without feeling or soul. "
" "I don't want you to die!" "
"But, we have to die! "Yes, for love, we have to die. It's that simple." "But, I want to die in your arms, so that I will die without regrets!" "Death without regrets, and death without regrets...
" I nodded.
\ On the day I left, my old buddies lined up to see me off, and I drank heavily with them. I knew this was for me to make a strong move.
I can clearly see the big shiny teeth of the army ant, like a guillotine, and my head will be cut off by him soon. But I won't let them succeed, because my lover can only die in my arms, I promised her.
We stopped, and the smiles she and I faced each other in the spring breeze reminded me of the afternoon when we first met. I hugged her over, and her eyes told me that it was time for me to fulfill my promise. . I kissed her passionately, and I kissed her wildly in front of my buddies and those army ants.
\The army ants rushed up, and my old buddies rushed to meet them...
When my lover's blood mixed with my blood flowed on my chest, I finally understood what it meant to die without regrets.
When spring comes again, there is a little ant dreaming under the tree...
