Eventually, weak waters will replace the vast sea

Everything feels as if it's still in a dream. I would rather not believe it, rather not wake up. Those people I once despised with my words, I have ultimately become one of them. I used to not understand why, unable to comprehend, but now, there is a very perfect explanation, even if the ending is so stark. \ I once thought that loneliness and solitude were compulsory lessons in life, that living independently seemed to be the most beautiful posture in this world, but that was only because I had never experienced warmth, or had gone through hardships. When there was an exception, I understood that reliance could be so wonderful. The moth doesn't not know the danger of the flame; it is just too enamored by that rare embrace. \ After experiencing days filled with laughter and joy, I return to being alone, bored to the point of tears, repeating over and over, 'It doesn't matter.' Yet the heart has long been unable to bear the burden. When I become calm, I will send the longing to Mount Wu..