I've been here, I'm very good "The Suicide Note of an Eight-Year-Old Girl"
The helpless father has a beautiful little girl, her name is Yu Yan, she has a pair of big bright eyes, and she has a transparent childlike heart. She was an orphan, and she only lived in this world for 8 years. The last words she left in this world were "I have been here, and I am very good." She hoped to die in autumn, and her slender body was like the natural process of a flower blooming and withering. When yellow flowers pile up everywhere and fallen leaves dance in the air, she will see geese traveling across the sky. She voluntarily gave up treatment, divided the 540,000 yuan donated to her by Chinese people all over the world into 7 parts, and distributed life as a cake of hope to 7 children who were hovering on the line of life and death.
I voluntarily give up treatment
She didn't know who her biological parents were when she was born. She only had one adoptive father.
November 30, 1996, which was October 20 of the lunar calendar that year, because "Dad" She Shiyou found this dying man in the grass next to a small building in Shenjiachong, Yongxing Town. When she was a newborn, she found a small piece of paper stuck in her chest, which said "12 o'clock in the evening on October 20th." She Shiyou, who lived in Group 2 of Yunya Village, Sanxing Town, Shuangliu County, Sichuan Province, was 30 years old at the time. Because the family was poor and could not find a suitable partner, if they wanted to adopt this child, no one would be willing to marry into this family. Looking at the baby crying like a kitten in his arms, She Shiyou put it down and picked it up several times, turned around and looked back. This little life was already cold and crying weakly. He was afraid that he would die at any time if no one cared about him! Gritting his teeth, he picked up the baby again and sighed, "You can eat whatever I eat." She Shiyou named the child She Yan because she was born during the harvest season in autumn. A single man became a father. He had no breast milk and could not afford milk powder, so he had to feed rice soup, so She Yan She was frail and sick, but very well-behaved and sensible. Spring came and went again, like a little flower on a bitter vine. She Yan grew up day by day. She was surprisingly smart and well-behaved. Neighbors said that the doll they picked up had a high IQ and they all liked her. Although she had been sick since she was a child, She Yan grew up despite her father's fear.
The hard-working child is indeed extraordinary. From the age of 5, she has known how to help her father share the housework, washing, cooking, and mowing the grass. She went to elementary school, and She Yan knew that she had to study hard, be motivated, and get first place in the exam, so that her illiterate father would have a bright face in the village. She never let her father down. She sang to him, told him all the interesting things that happened in school, and carefully pasted the little red flowers she got on the wall. Occasionally, he would fail his father with naughty debut questions. . .
Every time she sees the smile on her father's face, she will secretly be satisfied, "Although I can't have a mother like other children, I am very happy to be able to live such a happy life with my father." Starting in May 2005, she often suffered from nosebleeds. One morning, She Yan was washing her face when she suddenly found a basin of red water. It looked like blood was dripping from her nose. No matter what measures she took, she couldn't stop it. There was really nothing she could do. Her father took her to the township health center for an injection, but the small needle hole kept bleeding, and there were a lot of red spots on her legs. The doctor said The doctor said she should go to a big hospital for a consultation quickly. When she arrived at the Chengdu Big Hospital, it was the peak time for consultations. She couldn't wait in line, so she sat alone on a bench and held her nose. The nosebleeds were like two lines, falling straight down and staining the floor red. She felt embarrassed, so she had to pick up a bedpan to catch the blood. In less than 10 minutes, the basin was half filled with blood. Upon seeing this, the doctor quickly took the child for examination. After the examination, the doctor issued a critical illness notice. She has "acute leukemia"!The medical expenses for this disease are very expensive, generally costing 300,000 yuan. Shiyou She was confused. Looking at his daughter on the hospital bed, he couldn't think too much. He only had one thought: save his daughter! The money collected from relatives and friends was only a drop in the bucket. 300,000 was too far away, so he decided to sell the only adobe house in his family that he could exchange for money. However, because the house was too dilapidated, he could not find a buyer for a while. Looking at my father's melancholy eyes and thinning face. She Yan always had a sad feeling. Once, She Yan held her father's hand. Before she could say anything, tears came out: "Dad, I want to die..." Her father looked at her with a pair of shocked eyes. "You are only 8 years old, why do you want to die?" "I am a picked-up baby. Everyone said that I am cheap and cannot afford this disease. Let me be discharged from the hospital..." On June 18, 8-year-old She Yan took the place of her illiterate father and signed "Voluntarily giving up the treatment of She Yan" on her medical record. The 8-year-old girl obediently arranged for her offspring to go home on the same day. She Yan, who had not made any requests to her father since she was a child, made two requests to her father. She wanted to wear a new dress and take a photo. She explained to her father, "I will be gone from now on. When you miss me, just look at me in the photo." The next day, her father asked her aunt to take She Yan to the town and spent 30 yuan to buy two sets of new clothes for She Yan. She Yan chose a set of pink short-sleeved shorts for herself, and her aunt chose a set of white skirts with red dots. . . She could no longer go to school. She stood on the path in front of the village with her schoolbag on her back for a long time, her eyes always wet. If it weren't for a reporter named Fu Yan from the "Chengdu Evening News", She Yan would be like a quietly falling leaf, quietly floating down in the wind. The reporter's aunt learned about the situation from the hospital and wrote a report detailing She Yan's story. Immediately, the story of "8-year-old girl cleverly arranged her offspring" spread in Chengdu. Chengdu was moved, and the Internet was especially moved. Countless citizens were heartbroken for this poor girl. From Chengdu to the whole country, and even the world, the real world and the Internet space were linked. All caring people donated money to this weak life. "Harmonious Society" became the strongest in everyone's heart. In just 10 days, donations from Chinese people around the world have exceeded 560,000, and the cost of the operation is enough. Little She Yan's fire of life was rekindled by everyone's love! After announcing the end of the fundraising event, donations from all over the world continued to be received. All the money was received, and the doctors tried their best to overcome the treatment difficulties one after another! Everyone is smiling and waiting for the day of success. . . Some netizens wrote, "She Yan, my dear child..." MOTOROLA Ming, how do you feel after reading this?I, a little want to cry. . . She Yan, who gave up treatment and went home to wait for death on June 21, was brought back to Chengdu and admitted to the Municipal Children's Hospital. With money, she had hope and reason to live in her humble life. She Yan underwent unbearable chemotherapy. Inside the glass door, She Yan was lying on the hospital bed for infusion. There was a chair at the head of the bed and a plastic basin on the chair. She would vomit on her side from time to time. The little girl's strength surprised everyone. According to her attending doctor, during chemotherapy She Yan had a strong gastrointestinal reaction. At first, She Yan vomited more than half of her basin, but she didn't even say a word. When she was first hospitalized, she did a bone marrow puncture test. The needle penetrated through the ribs. She didn't cry or scream, didn't shed any tears, and couldn't move. She Yan did not receive any maternal care from birth to death. When Dr. Xu Ming suggested, "She Yan, be my daughter." She Yan's eyes flashed, and tears welled up. The next day, when Dr. Xu Ming came to her bed, She Yan shyly called her "Mama Xu." The next day, Mrs. Xu came to the ward and put on a pair of white socks for She Yan. She said to her casually: "Put on these, so as not to get cold." She Yan said happily, "Mom, this is the first time I wear socks." Dr. Xu Ming instantly felt like needles pricking her heart, and then asked her, "Tell mom, what else do you want?" She Yan lowered her head shyly for a long time, and then timidly said, "I want to have a pair of red leather shoes with white socks underneath, like Snow White." That night, after Dr. Xu Ming got off work, he took a taxi to a children's clothing store and bought a pair of red leather shoes and two pairs of white socks for 80 yuan. The next day I went to the ward and put on red leather shoes and white socks for She Yan. She Yan sat on the edge of the bed with her feet not touching the floor. She liked it very much. It's a pity that I only wore them for a short while. It was time for the injection. I had to put needles on my feet for infusion. After a while, I took off my socks and leather shoes. Everyone is looking forward to a miracle, and everyone is looking forward to the moment when She Yan is reborn. Many citizens come to the hospital to visit She Yan, and many netizens on the Internet are sending their regards to this poor child. Her life filled these strange lives with light! During that time, the ward was filled with flowers and fruits, and there was an intoxicating fragrance everywhere. During two months of chemotherapy, She Yan went through nine hellish situations, including septic shock, sepsis, hemolysis, and massive gastrointestinal bleeding. . . Every time, misfortune turns into good fortune. The chemotherapy plan jointly determined by authoritative children's hematology experts in the province and even the country is very effective. The "leukemia" itself has been completely controlled. Everyone is looking forward to the good news of She Yan's recovery!However, the possible complications caused by the use of chemotherapy drugs are very scary. Compared with other children with leukemia, She Yan's body is very weak. After the operation, her physical condition became even worse. In the early morning of August 20, she asked Fu Yan, "Auntie, tell me, why did they donate to me?" "Because they are all kind people." "Auntie, I am also a kind person." "You are naturally a kind person. Kind people will become kinder if they help each other." She Yan took out a math homework book from under the pillow and handed it to Fu Yan, "Auntie, this is my suicide note..." Fu Yan was shocked. He quickly opened it and saw that it was indeed the posterity arranged by Xiao Sheyan. This is an eight-year-old child who, when he was dying, lay on the bed and wrote a three-page suicide note with a pencil. Because the child was too young, he could not write some words, and there were many typos. It was obvious that this article was not written in one go. It is divided into 6 paragraphs, starting with "Aunt Fu Yan" and ending with "Goodbye Aunt Fu Yan." "Aunt Fu Yan" or "Aunt Fu" appears 7 times throughout the article, and 9 times the reporter is referred to as "Auntie" for short. After these 16 titles, they are all about her "please" after her death and her desire to express "thank you" and "goodbye" to the people in the society who care about her through reporters. "Goodbye Auntie, we met in the dream, Auntie Fu, my dad's house is going to collapse, daddy, don't be angry, don't jump off the building. Auntie Fu, you have to take good care of my dad, Auntie, I will give a little bit of my money to our school, thank you auntie. I told the president of the Red Cross that after I die, give the remaining money to those patients like me, so that their illnesses can get better..." This suicide note made Fu Yan burst into tears and burst into tears. "I've been here before, and I'm very good." On August 22, She Yan, who had been unable to eat for almost a month due to gastrointestinal bleeding and relied on infusions for support, broke off a piece of instant noodles and put it into her mouth for the first time. The bleeding in her gastrointestinal tract soon worsened. Doctors and nurses urgently gave her blood and fluid transfusions. . . Seeing She Yan's unbearable abdominal pain and pain, many doctors and nurses cried. Everyone was willing to help her share the pain, but they tried all kinds of methods to no avail. She Yan's abdominal pain was unbearable. She begged all the doctors and nurses, "Let me die, I feel uncomfortable..." The doctors and nurses comforted her and told her to persevere, and she would be fine soon. In the end, She Yan left this world in extreme pain. After the doctors stopped breathing, they still spared no effort to save her for 80 minutes, but in the end they could not save this young life. 8-year-old little She Yan finally escaped the ravages of the disease and passed away peacefully. No one can accept this fact. Did that "little fairy" who is as beautiful as poetry and as pure as water really go to another world? Reporter Fu Yan touched She Yan's face, which was gradually becoming cold, and burst into tears. I can no longer call her aunt, and I can no longer laugh out loud. . . Sichuan Online, NetEase and other websites were immersed in a sea of tears, and the Internet was soaked with tears. "Heartache is so heartbreaking that I can't breathe." Under the news posts of each website