I've always been the only one...
Today is my birthday, but unfortunately I am the only one. I didn't tell anyone around me because they didn't have the need! I got into the high school I wanted and left home to come here. I have a few classmates from the same place, but I still have no friends here! No one is better to me and worthy of being a friend, but what about me? I am still nice to everyone, but many people take my kindness and respect for them as a reason to ridicule me! I will try my best to help those who can usually help them... It is only right to treat them well! I caught a cold yesterday because I blew the electric fan during a class in the afternoon... I was sitting under the electric fan and the weather was not bad! I only wear one! But the guy who was relying on turning on the electric fan just turned on the electric fan! I told the guy next to me to turn it off many times, but he kept turning it on! As a result, I caught a cold at night. He forgot that that hot day when he sat under the electric fan and caught a cold, I was at the switch in the corner. I didn't turn on the electric fan for several days for his own good. He didn't expect that he was deliberately playing tricks on me... Maybe, when your interests are similar, you are friends, but when your interests are contradictory, you are enemies! Although my relatives are very kind to me, I am not with them, and their love fades away due to distance... My studies are getting worse and worse. I actually just want to be ordinary. For me, I have actually seen through, outstanding, my qualifications are impossible, but ordinary is okay, but now I am not even ordinary... No one helps me. There was a guy in my dormitory who did very well in the exam, but he was very bad to me. He would bully me after just a few words. Last time he even took my slippers and threw them on my bed! I feel so lonely! People look down upon me if I have a good personality. When I uploaded something to others on the Internet with good intentions, they didn't understand and even scolded me. Maybe it's not just me, but there are many people in society... For people like me, there are only two ways to go: 1. Continue to be insulted. ⒉My heart is twisted and revengeful... Maybe I am just a normal person, so I choose the first one... I have also been degenerating recently. I also thought: no one has the responsibility to be good to me, except my father, my mother, and the people who love me! I have always told myself this... When I was writing the essay, I revealed some of my emotions, and the teacher wrote about my reasons: low self-esteem, maybe I saw too clearly, which led me to think that I was poor... I have always wanted to be an ordinary person and get ordinary things, but my fate is always the opposite! I am good to everyone, but I am not recognized by everyone, and I want to live a normal life, but misfortunes always happen... Well, my language expression skills are very poor, and my writing is not good. Maybe I am really bad... I feel better after writing it. I hope everyone goodbye happiness (English is not good, I don't know if that's right...)
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I sympathize with you. When I was 13, I was about the same as you. But I saw through it. Whoever messes with me, I beat them. If they take a chair, I use a table. Anyone who provokes me will have to bleed a little.
Actually, I was also thinking that my strength might be a bit weak, so I decided to join the army, train for a few years, and when I come out, I'll beat him up.
Take care of your own matters, walk your own path, and don't worry about what others say or think. Hard work and perseverance will eventually be rewarded. Keep going! Happy birthday!
They're all extreme youths. I'm 22, and I've been through everything you've experienced. I've been humiliated, rebellious, even locked up, and yet I'm living well now, with my own family and a successful, stable career. So everything is only temporary. There will always be your own sky; it just hasn't drifted to you yet. Keep going, young one.
Sigh, I used to be like that too. Whenever I tried to be nice to my classmates or answer questions in class, someone would say I was insincere and accused me of having bad intentions. At that time, I basically had no friends, only one or two, and they were from other classes. Even when someone was beaten by others and I helped them, they actually told me to get lost. I felt extremely depressed back then, and my heart was very troubled. I couldn't understand why they treated me that way, so I hit that person, and in the end, I was expelled. The time that followed made me feel very lost. At that time, I felt like there was no reason to live on; both teachers and classmates ignored me. But it was then that my life took a turning point—it was Teacher Yan. She helped guide me, persuaded me to study, and coaxed me for a long time. I agreed, so I went to another school to study seriously. I talked more with my classmates, and later, I actually...
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